Today may have been Alexander's first day at school. I am trying to find positive words to write but it's difficult. My heart has a hole, made bigger seeing pictures of children his age starting school. My heart crumbles when I think of the school polo shirt, the grey shorts and red jumper that he will never wear. I feel even more sad wondering what he would look like at four. I am missing everything he would have told me about his first day.
Today, I am really feeling the memories that we never had but could have had.